My Own Raven

July 18th, 2008

July 17, 2008 - Chennai, IndiaLast night shortly before midnight, I had already brushed my teeth and was just about to change for bed, when the faintest knock occurred on my door. Reminiscent of Poe’s dolefully dramatic but wonderful rhythmatic The Raven. ” . . . suddenly there came a tapping, As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door. ‘Tis some visitor,’ I muttered, `tapping at my chamber door - Only this, and nothing more . . .” Unlike Poe unfortunate character I was correct, no raven, only two boys. One of them the neighbor from across the hallway. There is maybe three feet that separate my doorway from his, yet this was the first time that he came over to say hello, and this time only late at night. He was afraid of his parents who apparently do not approve of him mixing with foreigners. I should mention that when I call them boys, I mean they are somewhere in their early twenties, one maybe slightly younger, the other slightly older. He came late at night and asked me not to let his parents know that he had come.

Beyond that I also learned what I already suspected and mentioned before namely that a large portion of the Hindu population of India, although they might have a problem with “Christians” have no problem with Christianity, or Christ. In fact he was telling me how many Hindus prefer the churches and the Christian religious service, because there is time and place for quiet meditation and prayer. When they go to Hindu temple, it is loud and there is no place where they can worship in peace. But they like to come to our worship service where it is peaceful. Nevertheless there are still many who are faithful and convicted and true to the Lord in their service and their lives.

An Empty Gap

July 18th, 2008

July 16, 2008 - Chennai, India GMT +5:30Today I was on my way to teach at our Bible school in Nagalapuram, when the car broke down. Actually I was taking a nap in the back of the car, from which I awoke after my body sense that we were stopped for some unknown reason. The car wouldn’t start and the driver thought it was the alternator. I got out and pushed and we got the car started again, but immediatley smoke started billowing out of the engine. We shut it off again. We weren’t that far along on our journey, only about 30 kilometers from my flat. I left Kumar with the car and returned by auto rickshaw to my home.

My flat as many of you may know sits practically right on the beach, the ocean and sky stretch away indefinitely from the roof of my building, and when I go for a walk my glasses are often covered with salt by the time I return. On this particular day driving back to my flat in the late hours of the morning, we were riding along almost due East, straight towards the ocean. We came over a small rise in the road and I could see, down the road between houses and trees, a glimpse of that same sea. It wasn’t so much that I could see the sea, as I filled it in. When I think back on it now, I am almost positive that I saw nothing of sand or foam, or gently rolling blue. The road was a narrow one, there was a great amount of overhanging foliage, people, cars, and general traffic and the end of the road and the beginning the peaceful was still 1/4 of a mile away. There was a small gap and through it could be seen not deep blue, but empty blue, not sea but sky, not something but nothing. It was a gap, a hole, that was it but in that hole I saw the sea. My brain, my eyes, my body knew it was there, despite the fact that it could not be seen. If you had asked me the second after that moment, “Can you see the sea from here?” My answer would have been a smile, a point, a consternation as I suddenly realized that no you could not in fact quite see it. It was there certainly in my brain, filled in in full color, like that one spot your eye can’t see, and yet there is no hole in your vision. Even if I had never been to that part of town before, never come down that road, never before set my eyes to skim over tar and under leaf towards that single opening, I’m still sure I would have seen in that opening the sea. Who knows what small signs assist the mind in such a calculation, a slight drop in temperature, a tiny shift in breeze, the taste of salt on the tongue as the breath flows through your body, the faint hint of a sea gulls cry, all too small too be grasped by conscience thought, but nevertheless all noted, calculated and filed. Small numbers which signal deep blue and sand white.

So is our God, or rather our knowledge of our God. I have deep respect and a great appreciation for those who labor in the field of apologetics. I appreciate very much their intense understanding, their calculated and reasoned defense of the Word of God. My own mind often seeks for just such answers. But in the end all they can do is describe what isn’t there. They can look down the road and see the endless sky, the open emptiness where there ought to be buildings and trees, but to fill it in takes something else something more. Not because the proof isn’t there, not because the clues aren’t there but because they are beyond our ability to cope with, to quantify and to categorize. Nevertheless we know it to be true, we know it to be certain. The Word adds what our minds cannot quite grasp. Faith, given by the grace of God, reaches beyond the emptiness, below vacancy. There filling the void is the Lord God. And then grasping what cannot be grasped, understanding what we do not want to know, faith fills not only fills in the gap, but colors it to. We know the color of the Lord, how to fill Him in. Not all, not completely, but partly. We know because we have seen Him.

What Parents Do for Their Children

July 10th, 2008

While you are driving through Chennai  you will often see signs reading, “If It’s not Hindu it not Indian” For a while I just assumed this was some sort of promotion for the Hindu religion. Until someone, I think it was Todd, pointed out that it is probably an an advertisement for the local newspaper here in Chennai, which is called “The Hindu”.

In that same newspaper I found the following advertisement, and thought I woudl share it with all of you. It puts a whole new twist on personal ads. (If you can’t read the smaller print, click on the picture it will bring it up in  a seperate window, then click again and it will enlarge it)

Parental Matchmaking

Penniless Soccer

July 2nd, 2008

I spent most of the day without any power. It went off late last night at some point, was on briefly this morning, but other than that left me alone. Which in one sense turned out to be good since my freezer badly needed to be defrosted and is now currently free of ice. Around 6:00pm the sky began to darken and I was a little afraid that soon I would have to give up studying since I would have no more light. But then I stepped outside for a minute and when I came back the power was back on, praise the Lord.

On a totally different note what I really wanted to mention today was the latest issue of Time Magazine. The June 30 - July 7th issue has a large section on games played aroud the world. They take a number of popular international sports and briefly talk about how these sports affect the lives and cultures of people in different areas of the world. I found some of these articles extremely interesting.  For example one article speaks of how families in Cameroon will often sell everything they have including their business and only means of livilihood just to pay for a son to go to Europe to train in football (soccer). Many of the young men end up penniless in Europe with no way to get home. Meanwhile their families have enormous debts (to them anyway) with little chance of ever paying them back. Often these situations are intiated by hucksters who make big promises take the money and abadon the boys once they get to Europe. Another article informed me that Polo was not originally a British game but had its roots over here in Tibet as an exercise for Calvary. Or how South Korea has turned computer gaming, I’m sorry e-games, into a national past time to the extent that the top players are treated in much the same way we revere Brett Favre or Michael Jordan. The articles are short only a page or two and yet give a good deal of insight into understanding both the sport and the lives and culture of some of the people that play them. I thought I would mention them in case anyone else was interested in reading them.

- Matt

Culture Shock at Home

June 30th, 2008

June 30, 2008 - Chennai, India 14:36 (GMT +5:30)

Bruce Neumann recently sent me a short paper dealing with Culture Shock it was an interesting article, and was written to help people understand and deal with adjusting to a foreign environment. But I think it and papers like it could have another and far more important usage namely helping those of us that remain in our birth culture to understand those to whom such a culture is foreign in order that we might more effectively reach out to them with the gospel. This is far more important concern in the US than in most other countries. Obviously the US is full of people from almost all cultures of the world. And many of them never really integrate into US culture. In fact the history of the Lutheran church bears out how easy it is to recreate a new culture similar to a homeland rather than integrate into the one already there. I think it was Todd Ohlmann who mentioned to me at one point that it is far harder, humanly speaking, to reach out with the gospel to an Indian in the US than it is to reach out to an Indian in India. This is due in a large part to the simple fact that they see their religion as one of the few remaining links to the life they grew up with, the culture they are comfortable with. And for that reason they hold on to it with even tighter fists. Especially I wanted to mention two points that the article speaks about.

“The second stage [of culture shock] is usually a downturn as disillusionment and frustration arise . . . Sojourners can become aggresive and exhibit unpleasant behavior . . . Physical symptoms of distress also can result from this stage of culture shock. They include aches and pains in limbs, headaches, chronic fatigue and lack of energy, loss of appetite, inability to get a good night’s sleep, stomach upsets, and frequent colds and flu. ”

“You can feel closer to home if you find people in the new environment who are from your own culture. But beware of the tendency to develop an “us” and “them” attitude toward the host culture: foreigners can encourage each other to adopt hostile views of the natives that make it harder to deal with culture shock, not easier”

I share these points here to encourage you all as faithful witness of Christ, to be especially understanding and forgiving when your paths cross with people from foreign cultures. It is very easy not only for foreigners but also citizens to develop an “us” versus “them” attitude. But such an attitude in no way helps either them or ourselves.

I don’t remember when or where I heard though I think it was while touring one of the churches in question, but the story itself made a great impression on me and I doubt I will ever forget it. In downtown Milwaukee there were two churches, one of them is now pretty much depleted of members, the other is healthy and growing. The reason for the difference that was given to me is that the one was able to reach out to the African-American’s while the other was not. I was not so much interested in the fact that one survived and the other didn’t, as I was impressed by the fact that although both preached the same message, one was listened to by the African-Americans and the other was not. I have no doubt that a large part of the reason was the simple attitude of the parishioners and or church leaders.

One Lord,

one faith,

one baptism;

one God and Father of all,

who is above all,

and through all,

and in you all.

Ephesians 4:5-6

Hanging With Todd

June 12th, 2008

Himalayan Hills

June 12th, 2008

CLCI Graduation

June 12th, 2008

Retreat

June 12th, 2008
June 6, 2008 - 7:01 (+5:30 GMT) - Yelagiri Hills, India
I’m am currently staying in the Yelagiri Hills. Which are a type of Indian Resort Town. Fairly high up in elevation the hills are currently 15 - 25 degrees cooler than Chennai. Which puts the weather in the mid to high 80s, refreshingly cool compared to Chennai, still a little on the warm side compared to Nepal. As the name implies the hotels reside at the top of some large hills. The Hills are covered with trees and undergrowth rather than the typical Indian vista which switches between over populated cities of solid concrete and continuous farmland. There is even a lake, which is not necessarily unique in India, but the relative cleanliness and nature beauty that surround it are. Being a resort village the prices of the hotel are higher than normal ranging from $30 for a cheap room to $70 for the more expensive. D. Paul was telling me this morning how ridiculously high the cost of food was in the hotel. For example Dosai the typical Indian Breakfast cost a full 20 rupees, the equivalent of 50 cents in US money. The other day when we stopped for lunch the full cost for all four of us, the driver, Sampath, D Paul and myself was 220 rupees, equivalent to about $5 US.
I have every intention of waking up very early tomorrow morning and walking out to the edge of the hills upon which this hotel sits to see the sunrise. The Yelagiri Hills are on one side of a wide valley which is surrounded by hills. Although these hills are definitely not tall enough to be considered mountains even by my standards they are nonetheless impressive for hills. In other words they are the tallest hills at the same time they are the shortest mountains. In between the hills is a wide valley of relatively few inhabitants. So that it is covered by farmland and villages instead of cities. The upshot being it is still a relatively beautiful piece of the Indian countryside. Actually most of Indian is beautiful. The problem is in the cities the Indians have done a wonderful job of disguising that fact. I have no intention of telling D. Paul of this plan both because he will probably insist on coming and because he would almost certainly insist on driving. I don’t want him to feel he needs to come and I definitely don’t want to drive. I couldn’t probably talk him out of driving, but I don’t feel like arguing at the moment, and there still remains the issue of his own sleep. The Indians’ desire to makes us feel welcome, and also to help in every way possible, is commendable as I am sure it comes out of their love for Christ, also they are well aware of the fact that we are to put it lightly bumbling idiots who have no idea what we are doing here, but there constant attention comes in sharp contrast with the typical American bravado and independence. Of which I certainly have my fair share.

Today after having class with the pastors of the Vanyimbadi district, we dedicated a new church building and baptized about 30 souls. It was the first time I had ever taken part directly in a baptism. Although I am not so sure it is the best to have the baptism being done by a person who speaks a different language than those who are being baptized. D. Paul was translating everything I was saying, but still. I also wonder what t at their view of our frailty. After about 20 baptisms D. Paul told me that I should sit down and he did the last ten himself. When I asked him about it later, he said that I looked tired. I certainly didn’t feel tired. I pointed out to him that I was slightly over half his age. I don’t know if it did any good. It is however generally not a good idea to argue with them since they will usually comply but you never know when you offend their customs through their compliance. The Indians are like the British in their deep and intricate social etiquette. It is only all the more difficult to learn because a keystone factor of their social customs is how far out of their way they go for the sake of guests, which of course we are at all times. If you ask them if such and such a thing would be okay, they will insist that it is, and that no one will be offended, even though at times I greatly suspect that is not strictly speaking the case. I remember once visiting a village for church the ladies had gone to great length to prepare a special meal just for me. These women knew that westerners don’t usually like things as spicy as Indians do and had prepared accordingly. However, since I was deeply sick at the time, and had just vomited earlier that day, there was very little I could do, except say no. I tried to explain, but I really don’t think they understand. In any case they looked very disappointed. It is true that we have some of that social etiquette, and whereas I am only just barely beginning to understand Indian culture, I am fairly certain that what we have in the US is barely comparable to the Indian’s culture. This thought was recently confirmed in my mind by a rather intriguing book I am reading on Indian history. According to author Alex Von Tunzelmann at the beginning of the relationship between India and Great Britain there was much that the two shared including, a love of literature, a rigid social structure based primarily on birth, and a deep and complicated social etiquette. Concerning British etiquette while I was flying on a plane from Africa to London, a British gal in the seat next to mecommented on the fact that I ate my food out of order. I can’t remember for sure but I think it was the fact that I was eating my salad with my meal and not before it that occasioned this particular comment. Now whereas I understand that to some degree similar orders are observed in America, the real difference I believe lies in the fact that it surprised her enough to comment on it, whereas I doubt most Americans would even notice, especially on a plane. On the other hand I can think of a couple of Americans who would agree and consider it rather ghastly of me to do anything so foolish as to ate my salad at the same time as my entree. Personally looking back on the whole incident I consider it ghastly enough that I ate that particular salad at all, airplane food is seldom five star cuisine and any type of vegetable is on the lower end of quality even for airplane food.

Speaking of Alex, I would certainly recommend her book to anyone interested in India history. The book deals mainly with the events and characters surrounding the independence of India, but considering what an important event that was it gives a lot of insight into the current state of India and world history immediately following WW2. In any case Alex is a superb writer. I think personally almost as good as David McCullough at making history come alive. And she has done seemingly excellent research which is all the more incredible considering I doubt she is past her mid twenties.

- Matthew Ude

 

 

The Hidden Valley

May 27th, 2008

May 27, 2008 - 21:18 (+5:45 GMT) - Kathmandu, Nepal

After a day of grueling, grueling because we were forced to get up at 3:30am, travel Todd and I arrived in the capital of Nepal, the day before the government is officially to become a democracy. I don’ t know where to start. Despite the fact that neither the people, nor the building, nor the food is anything like Wisconsin, I feel like I’m home. The temperature is low 80s during the day and maybe mid to low 70s at the moment. Despite the fact that I can’t keep my eyes open I think I could sit outside enjoying the night air all night. On top of that everything is green and there is plenty of grass. The city of Kathmandu doesn’t look that different from the streets of Chennai with respect to the types of building, how close they are too each other, etc, but the thing that makes all the difference is how clean they keep their streets. As we were walking back to the hotel this evening I saw one pile of garbage and Raju’s brother informed that it would be gone by tomorrow morning. And then there are the mountains surrounding the city.

Raju and his family are the kindest people. They feed us a delicious meal of vegetables, rice, peanuts, yogurt, different types of chicken, potatoes (sliced thin salted and fried), fried cauliflower and other things. Pastor Raju’s Father was born into a Hindu family but one day picked up a pamphlet on the street that talked about a loving God. He had never heard about Jesus before but through the grace of God became convinced that He is the only way of salvation and has since become a minister. His Son Raju is now studying and working a full time job in health care management. Yet, manages to find the time to help his father as a youth minister, evangelizing out in the villages, keeping up a website www.nepalchristian.org, and translating biblical material into Nepali. Raju also has a younger brother Rajam, who is currently studying at school, helping his brother and father in the ministry and wishes to someday be a missionary. The whole family is very concerned about the lack of training of many Nepal pastors. And are very eager to start a Lutheran Bible School here in Kathmandu. They already have the necessary facilities.

Tomorrow we head out to visit some of the villages and pastors outside of Nepal. When I commented on how beautiful Kathmandu was Raju said I should wait till tomorrow. Everywhere you go in Nepal is of course driving through the mountains. Most importantly though I am excited about the doors that the Lord seems to be swinging open here. I haven’t known them for very long but Raju and His family seem dedicated and selfless in the work for the Lord. Pray that here also the Word of God may grow.